I almost did not post today. I have always posted five days a week and God has always given me what to say. Today, nothing came. After talking with my sweet sister she gently reminded me that maybe God wanted me to simply wait on Him. She asked me if God was the one that told me to write five days a week or if that was my rule. It was my rule. I wanted to have a post up at 7am every weekday. I wanted it but God never told me to do that. So I prayed about it and decided to simply wait on God. Maybe He wanted me to not post today, or maybe it was time for me to take a break. After giving it to Him and completely walking away from it, He told me to write about my experience last night.
Last night our family had a big scare. We received a call that my grandmother (and very close friend) had been rushed by ambulance to the hospital. My mom and I ran out the door and drove to the hospital, all the while crying. I kept feeling the Spirit say, "Pray." But I couldn't form the words. We got to the hospital and waited. Again I kept feeling the Spirit say, "Pray." And again I just couldn't form the words. I was not angry and I did not blame God, but worry was just right there blocking the words from coming. "God please help her" kept running through my mind but I couldn't say anything else.
When things settled down and I came home for the night, I was finally able to pray. I asked God to forgive me for not praying before. He did not condemn me. He did not disown me. He showed me that He was right there with her the whole time. He showed me the Spirit of peace He brought to our family. When I think back to the waiting room, yes we were all worried and waiting, but we were peaceful. It is only because God's presence never left us. He was right there.
Father, today I praise Your name. Thank You so much for being with my grandmother last night and taking care of her. Thank You for Your healing hands on her body and mind. Thank You for Your peace and comfort for our family. God You are so good and wonderful. I praise You for being with me, loving me and comforting me. Though I couldn't offer up a prayer, You knew our heart and our desire and You were with us. Thank You Father. Amen.