Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Peace and Prayer

I almost did not post today.  I have always posted five days a week and God has always given me what to say.  Today, nothing came.  After talking with my sweet sister she gently reminded me that maybe God wanted me to simply wait on Him.  She asked me if God was the one that told me to write five days a week or if that was my rule.  It was my rule.  I wanted to have a post up at 7am every weekday.  I wanted it but God never told me to do that.  So I prayed about it and decided to simply wait on God.  Maybe He wanted me to not post today, or maybe it was time for me to take a break.  After giving it to Him and completely walking away from it, He told me to write about my experience last night.  

Last night our family had a big scare.  We received a call that my grandmother (and very close friend) had been rushed by ambulance to the hospital.  My mom and I ran out the door and drove to the hospital, all the while crying.  I kept feeling the Spirit say, "Pray."  But I couldn't form the words.  We got to the hospital and waited.  Again I kept feeling the Spirit say, "Pray."  And again I just couldn't form the words.  I was not angry and I did not blame God, but worry was just right there blocking the words from coming.  "God please help her" kept running through my mind but I couldn't say anything else.  

When things settled down and I came home for the night, I was finally able to pray.  I asked God to forgive me for not praying before.  He did not condemn me.  He did not disown me.  He showed me that He was right there with her the whole time.  He showed me the Spirit of peace He brought to our family.  When I think back to the waiting room, yes we were all worried and waiting, but we were peaceful.  It is only because God's presence never left us.  He was right there.

Father, today I praise Your name.  Thank You so much for being with my grandmother last night and taking care of her.  Thank You for Your healing hands on her body and mind.  Thank You for Your peace and comfort for our family.  God You are so good and wonderful.  I praise You for being with me, loving me and comforting me.  Though I couldn't offer up a prayer, You knew our heart and our desire and You were with us.  Thank You Father.  Amen.

Sweet Blessings~

9 comments:

  1. You made me cry, I KNOW this peace. It's the most loving, comforting peace you will ever know in your entire life, nothing compares to God's peace. I praise God she's ok too and I praise Him that He gave you peace and you recognize that peace. Thank you for reminding me of God's peace.

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  2. First off Jenifer, I understand completely about the blogging. I usually don't have to work to come up with what to write about, it just comes into my heart. There have been a couple of times however, when I sit down to write and nothing presents itself. I forget sometimes that I'm on His schedule, not my own. It always comes to me when He's ready for it to.

    As for not being able to make the words of prayer come, God knows our hearts so even though no words came I have no doubt He still heard you loud and clear.

    May His Healing Hands continue to touch your Grandmother, and His Presence give you and your family comfort.

    Have a Blessed Day!

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  3. Mandy, Yes I cried too. His sweet peace is so beautiful! Thank you so much for your prayers and comforting words last night. I love you sweet sister!

    Phil, This is His blog, not mine. I am on His time not my own. I want to dedicate this blog to Him and follow with HIs leading. Thank you for your kind words and prayers. Blessings!

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  4. So thankful that we don't have to walk alone. God is always with us and He knows our heart - even when the words won't come. Love ya!

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  5. Jenifer, I am glad to hear that things calmed down where your grandmother is concerned. Thank you for sharing this story. Isn't it great that God loves us no matter what?! If His love was conditional I would have been counted out a long time ago.

    I also wanted to encourage you and remind you of a verse your post brought to mind:

    Romans 8:26 "In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans."

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  6. We had a hard couple of hours last night, didn't we? And I felt exactly like you...wanting to pray...saying the name of Jesus over and over again...not able to say anything else! And, like you, when I got home I was able to pray! Thank God that He knows our heart even when we don't speak the words! And, thank God for touching her!

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  7. Jenifer, I am praying for your Grandmother! It's awesome how God prays on our behalf!

    Warmly,
    amie

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  8. Yes... sometimes all that we can pray is Lord, help!

    He is faithful.... He will not forsake us.

    <3 Traci

    Thanks for your visit and sweet comment to Ordinary Inspirations!

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  9. Thank you. This is just what I needed to hear.

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