Wednesday, January 15, 2020


Oh dear friends. I planned to be back on the blog long before now. But 2019 was a hard year. December was a very hard month. Christmas day was one of the worst days of my life. Since Christmas, I honestly considered quitting this blog and Woman to Woman Ministries. I was very much ready to walk away. I very much wanted to walk away.

In 2019 my husband and I had four car accidents, not a single one our fault. One accident, I was injured and still to this day have trouble with my hip from time to time. One accident, my husband was injured. My grandmother went in for a routine procedure and almost died. My grandfather was on life support and almost died. My dad has a health issue that they cannot figure out and it is so frustrating for him and so hard for us to see him hurt. My uncle suddenly passed away.

Then, just after midnight on Christmas morning, my phone rang. Getting a call at 1:30 in the morning will shake you because you know it surely cannot be good. It wasn't. My mom said one word, "Papa," and I shot out of bed screaming. He was gone. Unexpected. He had some health issues, but we thought things were getting better. But he was gone. I am still, three weeks later, shocked and devastated. I had the great blessing of being very close to my grandparents. This loss hurts more than I can ever say. Not a single day has gone by that I haven't curled into a ball and shed buckets of tears.

Even just last week, I thought I would shut down the blogs. But, I knew my Papa would not want that. He always read my posts. He was proud. I know God would not want that either. He put me here and gave me this space to share. So through all of the pain, all of the sorrow, all of the heartbreak, I will continue to blog. I will continue to share God's sweet blessings.

I love you Papa. I will always be your Darling Girl.

Continuing to count God's sweet blessings...

2685. The almost 40 years I had with an amazing Papa.

2686. The lessons I learned from him. I will share those lessons very soon.

2687. My husband who has held me, sometimes literally holding me upright, during this time.

2688. Friends who text just to see if I am okay.

2689. Listening to old hymns, Papa's favorite, and finding God.

It's your turn! Share something you are praising God for. I would love to rejoice with you.

1 comment:

  1. Jenifer, thanks so much for sharing your thoughts. I'm grateful that you are going to continue blogging and I'm sure that your Papa and all of your family are proud of you and most importantly our God. Wishing you all the best! Sheri Newell Anderson


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